Do you think...

Do you think I enjoy being depressed?
Do you think I want;
to cut?
to cry every single night?
to hate everyone around me because I envy them and their life?
Do you think I enjoy hating the way I look?
No I don't enjoy it,
I wish I was;
pretty,
smart,
I wish I was normal
But that wont happen.
Do you think I like being the person I am?