Worth the Suffer

So sick of all the lies,
Tired of the tears that fall from my eyes.
Hurt by all you did,
I know it could never go back to the way it was,
It's going to stay the way it is.
I don't know why,
I keep giving you chances.
I may say to you,
that I love you,
but sometimes, I feel like I don't mean it.
This has turned into a love-hate relationship.
I hate you for what you did, and what you are.
But at the same time, I love you with all my heart.
It angers me that I'm so stupid.
I should just leave you.
Cause deep in my heart I know that you're going to do it again.
I despise what you are,
a liar, and a cheater.
Yet I keep taking you back into my arms.
But, each time you do it, it pushes me afar.
Louisiana sounds better and better every time I think about what you did.
The guy I loved before he moved away is starting to put a smile on my face.
His arms seem so comforting to me, than yours do.
When I think about you, all I feel is hurt, and regret.
When I think of him, I feel solitude, I feel. . .appreciated.
He still cherishes the ground I walk on.
You make me the ground you walk on.
He seeks attention from me.
You seek attention from other girls.
He loves me.
Do you love me?
Like you say you do?
It doesn't seem like it.
I don't trust you.
And I have every reason not to.
I stalk you.
I watch your every move.
I don't like having to do that though.
I really just want to leave you.
You've already broke my heart.
You burned me too many times.
Yet. . .instead of being with a guy that loves me for me,
who really cares about me,
who will do anything for me,
I'm going to stay with you.
Even though that bus ticket sounds like my freedom from heartbreak.
I'm going to stay here, and let you torture me.
Let your stupid game continue to hurt me.
We've been together five months.
You were only faithful for one.
One month, I had your full attention.
You intentionally hid things from me.
Leaving you keeps sounding better and better to me.
I didn't see everything you said to all those other girls,
but what i did see, really did, truly did, hurt me, deeply.
Those are things that I shouldn't even see or hear.
I guess you can never completely be faithful.
I know I can't change you.
Only you can change yourself.
But since day one,
you've been cheating on me.
It took me three months to find that out.
You said you wouldn't cheat on me.
...I, believed you.
When I caught you, You promised never to do it again.
You made me broken promises.
Hopefully this time, you won't break your promise.
Cause if you do, I'll go far away.
Retreat into warm loving arms.
Not the cold ones that are yours.
I'll never forgive you for what you did.
Hopefully, things will maybe, become all good again.
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
― Bob Marley