I Was so Stupid

I haven't even felt like writing until this time

To get rid of all what inside and do feel a bit fine .

I thought I must get these memory down in writing .

Because I think when I'm writing the pain will be lighten .

Every nice memory happened to me was fake .

That's why I'm writing in pencil to be able rub out my mistakes.

you cant ever look at things from my point of view .

except if what happened to me happened to you too .

That was the most horrible feeling that I've ever felt .

I felt all the love which I was keeping in my heart was melt.

Suddenly all the lights went out I couldn't see anythings from the tears.

and I was an idiot and crazy girl to believed the past years.

The news was worse than I had expected to hear .

Fortunately , when I heard it no one was near .

When I'm thinking about it my heart aches and staying always regret .

Like some one slam me and said this is the reality which I have to accept .

Now I'm certainly sure that they don't mean any thing to me .

Surely like a musical scale couldn't be complete without the note me .

They are means nothing to like when the insects die .

Because of it I have to understand and regret why I was cry .

people believed that loving things is the best way to remember them .

And I believed If I want to forget any thing just hate them .

Every word they were break,every nice memory they fake.

They must be a bush to every step I'm going to take .

My eyes will never fill with tears for them and always be dry .

cause I have true friends whom can make me fly .

Friends who always be with me and they're never say good bye .

even if I don't ring them when I'm not OK they punish me and asking me why .

I want to talk , but I have nothing to say .

The game is over , and no more games to play .

From now and on , I want to work , I want to walk .

I don't wanna stay like a frozen rock .