Void

Contradictions and complications
Racing through my head
Can I out think this mental confliction
By falling asleep in my bed?

Is there anything left in which to believe?
Because nothing seems real to me anymore.
My smile remains painted on
As a one sided door.

The only entrance is from the other side
Which is the rule, no matter what side you're on
You try to open it but there is no key
It never was, so it can't be called "gone."

This all seems like a nightmare
Much less a dream
Where is true existence in all of this?
There is none, as it seems.

But if reality is a dream
And dreams are reality
Then when I die
Will I wake up, and be free?