Shall i tell you a secret?

Shall i tell you a secret?
Shall i confide in you?
Shall i tell you that most times i feel lost
or that i dont know what to do?
Shall i tell you i dont know how to trust
or what love even means?
Shall i tell you that although i smile
things aren't really what they seem?
Shall i tell you that i struggl through life
that each day is such a task?
Shall i tell you that i live in lies
that my smile is just my mask?
Shall i tell you how i get through the day
the reason why i survive?
Shall i tell you the one and only thing
that makes me want to stay alive?
Shall i tell you to look in my eyes
because you will see sadness there?
Shall i tell you that i've lost my self
that i'm wallowing in despair?
Shall i tell you to look past the surface?
but you may not like what you find
you may forget it in seconds
but its alwayson my mind
No, i'll keep it to myself
and nothing more will i say
I'll keep smiling and disguising my pain
while i slowly fade away