Because Of You

I hate myself
Because of you
What you did
What you tried to do
Emotional scars
Forever haunting
Never healing
Always open wounds
Trying to stitch back what is left
But no hope
I've tried and tried 
It always tears open again
I search for happiness
But achieve sadness
You caused this!
Not me
You made me hate the world
And everyone in it
You put the chip in my shoulder
The chip thats far to deep
You have caused me so much pain
As you go on normally 
I sit here and wither in pain
Just like I always have
No matter what I try
The memories of what you did always in my head
Never granting me the satisfaction of happiness or success
I am ugly to myself
I hate myself
Nothing is good enough for myself
I reduce my own self to tears because I expect myself to be better
But what you did to me rules my life 
I wish it didn't
But no matter what it will always be open wounds...