Empty Head

Ever had that feeling,
where all you feel is nothing?
You wrack your brain
and try to empty your head.
The search finds nothing,
now all you're left with is a feeling of dread.

The emptiness scares me,
as I lay here alone.
There's nothing to comfort me,
for all the things that once did -
I've out grown.

The music does nothing,
but makes me feel worse.
My old comforts,
cannot make this submerse.
I thought I was over this,
this feeling of loneliness.
But this time it's different,
for I'm not alone - just filled with sadness.

I've never had much to complain about,
for I've gotten everything I've ever wanted.
Yet something keeps nagging me,
it's as if because of this -
my mind is haunted.

Haunted with what ifs,
all the decisions I've ever made.
If I had done things differently,
then maybe I wouldn't have paid.
I don't regret my decisions or experiences,
just that I'd never tried.
If I'd fought for what I wanted,
instead of making the truth the lie.

I'm faced with a decision,
one that I really must make.
I have to think of my future,
and give just as much as i take.

It's not just me I have to think about,
it's no longer just me I have to care about.
And if I want a good future,
I have to sort all this out.

The future takes planning
and a lot of thinking.
My head has to be clear,
and I have to stop this blinking.

I have to clear my head,
from all this emptiness.
And I have to find the right person,
to turn it into happiness.

Yet I'm stuck with this feeling;
and all I have is nothing.