Ever feel so much pain?

Why? Why must I be tormented by this one nightmare? Oh wait, no it isn't a nightmare, its life, its all to real!
I wanna scream but I can't, I want things to change back to the way it was but that won't happen. I want to scream, I wanna break things, I wanna a drink away my problems, I wanna die!
It hurts so much, man.*sigh* I'm gonna be okay.
*sigh* Maybe things will change for the better
*sigh* Maybe I'll grow from this*
Sigh*I'm trying to convince myself that Its gonna be okay right now but I don't believe a word of it.
*sigh* I'll be okay
It'll be okay. Maybe if someone else would tell me I'll believe it but my mind is a dangerous place to visit because it lies, it cheats, it manipulates, it hurts.
*sigh* I'll be okay

*Groan*
My heart is crumpling and... tears are falling down my cheeks.
Will anything be like it was? Can you help me? I'm lost, I'm useless, i'm stupid, I'm empty, I'm so dead.