Bottled Still
Your breathing irritates me
I wish I could suffocate you without any consequences
Kill you like you have destroyed me
But I cannot
You turn everything against me
You are not even worth these words
Yet pain is beside me
Crying does not help
Being angry does not help
Speaking these words will never help
Nor bear a joy to you from me
You never will speak of a regret to me
You compare me to it though
Now only disabling you will provide me peace
I can deal with toxic words from any person
It is you who is different though
You are a petty, pathetic, disgusting thing
I wish to say those very words
With no response cutting into me
A million times
It will make me smile wide, so wide
And you will go away
Like the sun on cloud filled rainy day
And it will be glorious
And even magical
I will celebrate
But until then
I will stay bottled still and wait
I wish I could suffocate you without any consequences
Kill you like you have destroyed me
But I cannot
You turn everything against me
You are not even worth these words
Yet pain is beside me
Crying does not help
Being angry does not help
Speaking these words will never help
Nor bear a joy to you from me
You never will speak of a regret to me
You compare me to it though
Now only disabling you will provide me peace
I can deal with toxic words from any person
It is you who is different though
You are a petty, pathetic, disgusting thing
I wish to say those very words
With no response cutting into me
A million times
It will make me smile wide, so wide
And you will go away
Like the sun on cloud filled rainy day
And it will be glorious
And even magical
I will celebrate
But until then
I will stay bottled still and wait