how much it hurt me

After you said no,
I couldn't stop shaking,
Because on the inside,
My heart was breaking,

On the bus,
My friends tried to come to my aid,
but this wound,
won't be fixed by a band-aid.

The whole time I was holding back tears,
But I didn't let one slip,
Not in front of him,
I had to keep my grip.

I finally broke down when i got home,
breaking down in tears,
wondering how I let it get this far,
After almost a year.

My friend came over,
and brought some ice cream,
trying to make me feel better,
and i tried to believe it was just a dream.

My heart is still hurting,
Even though I'm over him,
But boys for now,
Well I'm over them.