Heartbreak?

My heart it aches it strives for love,
But after the past it cant be done,
Because the pain i've seen
and the pain ive delt,
Its really sad and sucks to say
if you know how ive felt,
It eats your soul and kills the heart
it makes you wanna die,
And the fact that i cant count the
times that i have cried inside,
Is this what heartbreak feels like
is this really worth my time,
To feel like im the one who did it
like im a convict in this crime,
So do you wanna know how it feels
to just wanna die,
No point in being here
result ... suicide,
You cant show that it kills you
you just gotta smile,
Cause if i explain myself to you
it would take a long while,
I always loved you dont get me wrong
But did you love me all along?