The Regrets of Sin

Full of guilt, of regret.
Not knowing where to turn.
This is where I find myself.
Darkness surrounds me.
A flare of heat that doesn't leave.
A desire to do what is wrong.
A want to no end.
So confused, I thirst for wrong.
I don't deserve happiness.
Hope looks at me and turns away.
For it knows that I am not worthy.
Among the social ranks I am high,
and I am told I am beautiful by many.
Do they mean it?
Temporary praise. That's my life.
Is change possible for me?
A voice tells me no, as my desire for wrong grows.
Darkness. Blazing heat.
Is this my future?
I search for an escape.
There are none.
Do not walk my path as so many have.
Turn away while you can.
Total darkness.
This is what I have become.