Wishing

wishin for luck and im wishin for change
wanting things to be different but they always stay the same
im scramblin my brain and lookin for a way second guessing myself guess I shoulda never came,
cant talk cant move im one with the lame
cant think feels like I dont even have a brain
tryin for joy but only gettin pain
passin opportunities like im in.the.left lane
on the road to crazy, i been driven insane
nothing is a must but I must sustain
pressure on my back its like I need a cane
my brain is on fire, my soul is enraged
tryin to be at peace but im feelin so caged
wondering if my life is real or if its all been staged
why does losin your mind matter if youre crazed
when will I see things clear wake up and not be dazed
when will anything ever change
until it does im just hopin wishin all the same