Bleeding Souls
Drakness sourounds me, Fear engulfs me, The demons hate me, As i hate myself. Tears flow, blood pours, Running down my skin, As the blade cuts into me, The voices talk to me in my head. One tells me to stop, Whilst the other begs for me to go further and
further. I wonder; Can they hear me? The outsiders, the ones around me? Do they hear within me? Can they hear me screaming? Can they see the pain i'm feeling? I doubt it. And if they do, they dont care. They want me to go further too, My voice was right, it is my friend. Its not trying to hurt me, Its helping me... Saving me by destroying me. Suddenly there isnt darkness anymore, Theres light, Lots and lots of light. Bright light! Its scary and it almost hurts that it feels so good. This cant be real, This doesnt exist. But it does, I feel it, im touching it... I taste it. The more i learn about it the stronger i feel, The more i need it, want it, Not just it... Him. The one who makes me feel like like this, Im not alone, i have him. I dont want or need anything now, Nothing but him. All the empty holes and spaces have been filled, All the fears and demons have gone, The voice that begged me to go further is gone, Its been replaced by another voice, A voice that tells me to follow him, Be anything he needs and wants me to be, No matter what, no matter how i do it, Just do it, just be it... For him and only him. Im not me, Im his. And i love it. I want it, need it. I have it and i will never let it go. It takes hold of me as tight as i hold onto it, This feels so good, He feels so good. Its love, its infatuation... Its greed; I cant share him, Let anyone realize how perfect he is... Its intense and it makes me weak, But fuck it makes me strong. Im only scared of one thing now... Is he the same? Is it real for him or does he just thing it is... Temporary?
further. I wonder; Can they hear me? The outsiders, the ones around me? Do they hear within me? Can they hear me screaming? Can they see the pain i'm feeling? I doubt it. And if they do, they dont care. They want me to go further too, My voice was right, it is my friend. Its not trying to hurt me, Its helping me... Saving me by destroying me. Suddenly there isnt darkness anymore, Theres light, Lots and lots of light. Bright light! Its scary and it almost hurts that it feels so good. This cant be real, This doesnt exist. But it does, I feel it, im touching it... I taste it. The more i learn about it the stronger i feel, The more i need it, want it, Not just it... Him. The one who makes me feel like like this, Im not alone, i have him. I dont want or need anything now, Nothing but him. All the empty holes and spaces have been filled, All the fears and demons have gone, The voice that begged me to go further is gone, Its been replaced by another voice, A voice that tells me to follow him, Be anything he needs and wants me to be, No matter what, no matter how i do it, Just do it, just be it... For him and only him. Im not me, Im his. And i love it. I want it, need it. I have it and i will never let it go. It takes hold of me as tight as i hold onto it, This feels so good, He feels so good. Its love, its infatuation... Its greed; I cant share him, Let anyone realize how perfect he is... Its intense and it makes me weak, But fuck it makes me strong. Im only scared of one thing now... Is he the same? Is it real for him or does he just thing it is... Temporary?