When Life Blinks: Part 1

I thought I had my life almost together
But now I'm full of heartache and pain
Every time I think I'm making the right choice
It ends up hurting me more instead
I don't know who to trust and who not too
I'm tired of having all this drama
And bad luck in my life
And ruin it and my future
I don't want to turn into a freak
I don't want to lose myself again
I thought I chose the right paths
But then again I mislead myself a lot