Not the girl

this whole thing makes me insane
will someone come & stop this pain?
i'm being lied at and laughed at
everything i ever believed in is starting to fade
and i'm starting to question
my whole self being

my shield is starting to crumble
and i don't know who i am anymore
i'm not the strong willed girl who you once knew
i'm not the girl who would always wear a smile anymore
i'm no longer the girl who would always laugh it off.
just who am i?