Another December without you

Waking up in my skin
Is a person I wish I didn't know
They must've come from my dark place within
Bringing the unbearable memories I wish would just go

Once they start I can't stop it
The pain, the tears, the cold,
To the empty darkness I submit
Without a hand for me to hold

I should've known I'd come crashing down
Once again it's that time of year
Inside of me I silently drown
Outside everyone else has Christmas cheer

I remember my first Christmas without you
And I find that I can't keep a smile
The day seems even harder to get through
Today my life doen't seem worthwhile