Bittersweet
I hurt inside
the temptation is to make the outside hurt too
I want to feel some sharp object
slicing into my skin
I want to feel the sweet release
as endorphins rush through my brain
and blood seeps through the open cut
I want to believe for a minute that everything's okay
I want to punish myself for being such a bad person
for that there is only one way.
Its so tempting to give in right now
but I'm lost in a sea of confusion
for I also know that if I start cutting again
I may never stop
Its an addiction of sorts
on so hard to quit
Not to mention the guilt I'll feel if I give in
This fight is rather bittersweet.
the temptation is to make the outside hurt too
I want to feel some sharp object
slicing into my skin
I want to feel the sweet release
as endorphins rush through my brain
and blood seeps through the open cut
I want to believe for a minute that everything's okay
I want to punish myself for being such a bad person
for that there is only one way.
Its so tempting to give in right now
but I'm lost in a sea of confusion
for I also know that if I start cutting again
I may never stop
Its an addiction of sorts
on so hard to quit
Not to mention the guilt I'll feel if I give in
This fight is rather bittersweet.