Escape

it's official, this hangover day was the worst i've felt in a very long time
which is saying something

pacing around in my driveway
cig just burning in my mouth
listening to the
pursuit of
happiness
and thinking
amen

i have no energy
nothing
drinking water
straight from the tap
cause i'm too sick to
wash out a cup

just pacing like an animal in a cage
watching the clouds fly by
and the stars slowly
drifting
crawling across the sky
on this very warm
december night
and i think that
i can see the
surface of
mars

about a year ago, do you remember
when we laid 15 feet from where this
animal is
standing
?

i do

4 months ago, do you remember
when i used to walk around
naked in the kitchen
just to see you smile
?

i do

there are too many memories to run away from
and i have no energy to even crawl
fuck this

i just keep myself awake
to feel like absolute shit
to ask myself why
am i thinking
of you when
it hurts so
much

maybe i simply can't stop
maybe i don't want to stop

i just keep myself awake
to lay in my bed, staring
at pictures of beautiful
girls, not even wanting
to jerk off

fuck

this

there is no

escape

and i feel like i'm going to

fucking

explode

ijustwantthistobeover