Play Pretend

I could tell myself that I’m okay
But every time I see her I start to cry
What does she have that you didn’t see in me.
I wanted to be your everything,
You don’t know how hard I did try
Call me a fool for believing so easily
Id fall asleep smiling waiting for a tomorrow
Now tomorrow I don’t even want to know
If I could close my eyes forever I wouldn’t say no.
But then there you are,
you’re never too far…

What does she have that I don’t have
She can’t love you in the same ways I did
What does she have that I don’t have
Your hand and mine fingers intertwined,
Your lips I would stare at but never had the gut to kiss
You’re the only thing I see and its driving me crazy
Over and over in my mind.

I want to hate you but I could only wish
Just for having you calling me sunshine all over again
Sometimes I can’t breathe
All the possibilities that were supposed to be,
And came to an end, I still don’t understand.
Your hand in my chest digging for my heart
I’m lying on the floor with a pounding in my head
I tell you I’m fine but I’m torn apart
I laugh myself to sleep now, it covers up the crying over everything you said.
My smile is gone but I could still play pretend

What does she have that I don’t have
She can’t love you in the same ways I did
What does she have that I don’t have
Your hand and mine fingers intertwined,
Your lips I would stare at but never had the gut to kiss
You’re the only thing I see and its driving me crazy
Over and over in my mind.