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You hold onto your pride and your mask with one hand when you say
"I'm too young for this relationship shit."
But I know you're not sorry for the feeling you got when you put yourself through me
At least you had the decency to use a condom

"I am going to fuck you"
He says as he rolls it on
It is later that you point out my lack of objection at this moment
But I sit her and remember how gone I was by then

I cover my body with the sheets you sleep in every night
You pull them off.
In the same manner that you pulled off my jeans and my underwear earlier
And let me tell you;
Latex hurts like a bitch.
It feels like you are tearing off a layer of skin inside me
I grab your arms and try to make you slow down so I can catch my breath long enough to bite the pain
You keep going.
I toss my head back and forth
Like I do when I am having a bad dream
The physical sensation of movement I use to wake myself up
I can't form words I'm in so much agony
The experience painfully like that of my failure to scream in sleep
I open my mouth and a short high-pitched sound comes out
I make it twice
Like I told you twice
"I don't know."

You're deaf and blind to objection.

All I can be is relieved when it's over
That you've relieved yourself with my body
I feel like a hollowed out punkin
I do not even have the energy to carve a smile into my face