And I hate to admit it but this is killin' me 07.27.2011

All I have left of you is the Teddy bear you gave to me when we dated for the seventh time. But that'll be gone along with everything else too, I can't go on, being reminded everyday of you. There's something everyday that when I look at it, it brings back the memories of the pain and laughter we shared and how we cuddled or how we'd cry in eachothers arms but even at the end of the day, after all the fights and all the drama, we stayed strong- you were the one that kept me going, kept me on my two feet. Some words you said were harsh but more were sweet. You weren't supposed to go, you weren't supposed to leave md this early. I don't know what happened or what made you believe that I didn't need you anymore. I could you walk out that door without looking back after everything we've been through, everything we had. You had no doubt? You felt no pain? Did you even hear the sweetness throughout my screaming of your name? Did you not wonder what happened or wad this all a plan to get me right where you wanted me than BAM! Could I be dreaming, drunk or high? Was this all a joke or a lie? The pain I feel inside is unbearable and now it's that I realize after such a long time that you won't come back, we're nit strong enough anymore and I hate to admit it but it's killin' me inside and now I know why.

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