"I wish you were mean, then i could hate you"

I shut my eyes
It hurts to see the truth in yours

I hold my breath
Its the only thing holding the river back

I pretend your not here
Even though your not that kind of person

The kind of person that i wish you were
It wouldn't so bad if you were mean

If you were how i wish you were
You would have done it over the phone

Not to my face
You would have gave the cheesy line "its not you..."

But no instead you are you
The one I fell for

You are here with tears in your eyes
Your words are filled with guilt

This is why I cry
This is why I can never hate you

If you were mean you wouldn't be you
And that's why it hurts the most