These Lasting Moments

You don't know how long I've wanted to die
How long I waited to float and kiss the sky
You've pushed me so far gone
Now I'm on the verge of being almost done

I'm at my happiest when I think dangerously
The rush makes me feel almost lively
When I'm at the edge of a knife of a gun
I find it's a pasttime almost fun

Whoever knew that being on the verge of death
Would make you push out all of the life you still have left
I live every second to the fullest mark
Because I know that this is almost a start