Pull the Trigger

I don't know what the fuck to say,
Anger. emotion eating me away.
Sunshine makes me cry,
Rainy skies make me sick.
I just want to scream!
My hands can't keep up with the tears streaming down my pitiful fucking face.
Fear and heartbreak full my tired lifeless eyes.
If you're gonna fucking do this to me please just do it.
Here's the gun clean and loaded, here.
Point it to my temple and squeeze.
Did you know I can hardly breathe?
And I've forgotten how to sleep.
Why does death taunt me.
I'd tell you that I fucking miss you,
But I'm sure it doesn't matter at all.
The things that were taken from me I'll never get back,
You'd think I'd learn from these dreadful mistakes.
But I never do.
Why would you love a soulless monster like me?
If there's a message in this poem?
I don't know.
Your silence screams what you're heart feels perfectly.
Yes I'm standing here, pull the trigger.
Your absence is enough proof of what's to come,
I'm walking on broken glass, can I cut my throat?
Please I beg your mercy, pull the trigger the guns in your hands baby.
If you want to go, pull the trigger so I can rest in peace tonight.
I'll always love you.