Regret Stained Eyes

This cigarette burns my lungs,
I trudge on.
These tears have made my face raw,
I let them fall.
The wind cuts my skin,
I move on.
My phone rings and rings,
I let it go.
Sometimes the end isn't so simple,
I know it'll come anyway.
The sun will set on this pain infused life,
I can't stop it.
The ghost of your voice sings it's beautiful song in my head,
I don't stop it.
Your words play in my heart,
I hold them close.
Standing on the edge looking down,
River could take this pain away.
The stars paint a picture of you,
I don't ignore them.
I stop and stare as the last ashes fall,
The tears fall faster,
The wind cuts my skin,
My phone goes silent,
Your face brings me to my knees.
Regret stained eyes,
fearful last goodbyes,
love infused pleas,
all go through my mind while I'm crying on my knees.
I'm not ready to let go of what I know I have with you.