Its me, i know its over
What do I have to hold onto? What do I have to make me happy? I have nothing. I have no one to catch me as I fall. Or to sit next to me as I cry. I have no one to tell me I matter and mean it.
I have family but its just not the same.
I sit in my room and I look at my deep purple walls and I can’t help but to think of what I could have done to be better. To be at least good enough to be in peoples lives and not thrown away as soon as they find someone better. Or how I could be someone that doesn’t get thrown to the side when there boyfriend or girlfriend comes along. Or to have that moment when you are having a great time with your friend and someone they know comes by and suddenly….I don’t matter anymore. It would be nice to be included as well. People who say there my friends go out together and leave me behind. Makes me wonder how alone I really am when I get invited not long before they leave. Maybe it would be nice to have someone I could trust with everything but I know I can’t do that. Nobody cares enough to take the time.
Nobody takes the time to get to know me.
I know I never know what to talk about all the time.
I know I’m different, I know I don’t like the same as many other people.
I know im not smart, in fact I know im dumb I must be. Everyone knows way more then I do.
I know im not pretty; I know im not like the other girls.
I can be violent but cant we all?
I know what its like to cry myself to sleep,
I know what its like not to matter
I have a feeling almost nobody read this far.
I know, I know I don’t matter and prob never will
I just wish
I just wish I could have someone who like me for who I am, can be and who will be with me when I fall.
Some one I can help and some one who will help me but I know it’s not going to happen
: /
I have family but its just not the same.
I sit in my room and I look at my deep purple walls and I can’t help but to think of what I could have done to be better. To be at least good enough to be in peoples lives and not thrown away as soon as they find someone better. Or how I could be someone that doesn’t get thrown to the side when there boyfriend or girlfriend comes along. Or to have that moment when you are having a great time with your friend and someone they know comes by and suddenly….I don’t matter anymore. It would be nice to be included as well. People who say there my friends go out together and leave me behind. Makes me wonder how alone I really am when I get invited not long before they leave. Maybe it would be nice to have someone I could trust with everything but I know I can’t do that. Nobody cares enough to take the time.
Nobody takes the time to get to know me.
I know I never know what to talk about all the time.
I know I’m different, I know I don’t like the same as many other people.
I know im not smart, in fact I know im dumb I must be. Everyone knows way more then I do.
I know im not pretty; I know im not like the other girls.
I can be violent but cant we all?
I know what its like to cry myself to sleep,
I know what its like not to matter
I have a feeling almost nobody read this far.
I know, I know I don’t matter and prob never will
I just wish
I just wish I could have someone who like me for who I am, can be and who will be with me when I fall.
Some one I can help and some one who will help me but I know it’s not going to happen
: /