I Get It Ok?

Heres what happened, I was in love.
His name was Cory. We were always together, we were in love. Well I thought we were. But no, I was just a friend. Another one of his rag dolls. And he never let me live it down. He didn't get a clue when I said "I get it!!!" But then he left me for good. so since I was crushed I never trysted anybody agian. So I do exactly what he did. I never let anyone in, I never, ever will let somebody penetrate past the walks of my heart again. Now the guys I date are only rag dolls. I find one I like and think is pretty, something mysterious about it. I'll play with it for a while, than when I figure it out I'll throw it away. Sounds cruel dosen't it? Well, if you were as badly as I and as many times as I did, and didn't become cruel than you are a angle. But the sad thing is I forgave all of those who hurt me. I still cant stand seeing people hurt or me doing. You would've thought I would be as mean as I described it, but I only put on a tough face and a fake smile. So, the reason I'm still aluve is my mom. Pathetic right? Well what can I say, she saved me, the least I can do os stay with her till the end. And than I'll leave with her. But no one will miss me. And even if they do I don't give a fuck anymore.