She Writes out her pain

She cires Every night
She cries out to god, begging him to make everything once again go more then just alright.
She screams saying she is tired of the pain
and the so many heart aches
She cries to mom saying I don't really want to but I want to take my life away
cause I'm so fed up with struggling each and every single day
I made up my mind I dont think I never be ok
Due to the scars that still remain.
I hate my self so much I hate looking at my own face.

She writes in her diary every single night
On how that day things just didn't turn out alright
She keeps debating inside her mind
Rather or not she should just go heaad and take away her life.
She tries to avoid that razor.
Cause she knows it won't do her any favors.

She complains and whines constantly.
But what people dont know she doesn't do it for attention.
She just hates her self for not being perfection.
She just cries out for help, because she know she be fading.
And she is scared out of her mind.
Cause she doesn't know rather or not the next hour she will be livin.
Cause she not sure how much she can take in.

So
She Cries Every night
She cries out to god begging him to make things once again turn out alright.
Cause she is tired of putting up a fight.
She made up her mind.
She wants to be able to say she survive.
Instead of having people say, she died of suicide that day.