Misery

This is about someone who lives in 2 worlds, you can also see it as one just going through a phase in life.
metaphorically as you can see, misery is a world where there taken away, either by their choice or not, when ur living in misery you feel all alone, you dont care what it does to you, your away from others,shut out from the world, you become immune to pain, its like someone can be so miserable there whole life it can turn into there own little world, and there ok with it, its so normal to them, where happiness is out of the question. when i feel happy i love it in the moment and i wish it can be like that forever, and believe me i show it and sure as hell treasure the moments of happiness, but dam i feel fucking weird after that for feeling so miserable all my life, and when you get to that part where you can cope with it,(At some age) its gonna suck, it can mess with your head, you feel like its ok to be in the world of misery, thats where ''oh sweet misery, what you can do to me'' comes in, AND also where ''i was always the strong one'' that has to do with both worlds, misery keeps me going, since i can cope with it and feel like its ok to feel like shit & miserable i feel it makes me stronger, that i can take on anything, that nothing else can hurt me more because im already in a world of misery!!
''dreams world' is where being beyond miserable is the only thing that seems to make you wanna live, dont dreams make you keep your hopes up? like they give you a reason to go for more? like the thought that comes to your head often,''One day''
Sometimes i ask if im meant to be this way, born as is? or did i do it to myself? because i will never blame another for what i feel, i put it all on me and always will.
2nd the part where it says ''when im dreaming away from misery,..misery is sweet to me'' how many of you can say at one point in your life have you ever drifted away from all the things that hurt you so much, that in the end you thank all that you been through because it makes you stronger, thats why i put misery is sweet to me, can you answer that? how many of you? or have you ever? well i do, and i live in 2 worlds :)
''WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME MAKES ME STRONGER''

if you really study it, feel it, maybe you would understand exactly what it means, i dont wanna put out too much info about it i want you to first give me your perspective on it, what you felt when u read it and how you feel you relate to it, Thank you.