I'm sorry, First Love

Forgive me first love.
Forgive those delighted eyes,
That diverted smile.

Forgive me first love
Forgive those wandering eyes
and wandering mind.

First love, forgive my doubts,
Forgive my fading footsteps.
Forgive my jealous voice,
my misguided acceptance
and blushing cheeks.

Maybe I thought
that because
I was not your first love,
It would hurt you less
To leave you.

Forgive me first love;
I hurt many people
Because I did not believe myself capable of inflicting that pain.

It's hard to Forgive me, first love
Because yours was not the love
I was looking for.