you left, i survived

“You left, I survived”
You say the words with a wondering smile
But how was I to know you were so cleverly lying
How dare you kick me at my weakest point
You knew I needed someone, you knew I wasn’t ok
I still can’t believe that even after
You found out why I have so many scares
You stuck to you fool proof plan
All I wanted was a friend someone I could trust
That wouldn’t run and hide at lightings first strike
There has been so many storms I’ve faced alone
To ashamed to ask for the help I so desperately needed
Just pack your things and viciously slam the door
It wouldn’t be you without the drama and screen play
I figured out the ending just as the movie ended
The last scene was a girl sitting alone
In a dark bloody corner, reaching for a hand
That’s no longer available
So I muster all the energy to stand on my own to feet
I stumble but I walk
I slur but I speak
I cry but I let go
I still remember but I move on