Love Isn't For Me

At first we didn't care you were four years older
You told me age was nothing but a number
But then your feelings had to change
Now everything is so strange
I used to look forward to every tomorrow
Now I know tomorrow just brings more sorrow
I try to have fun
But it seems like I always get tired of everyone
They say my broken heart will heal in time
But its not just broken because your no longer mine
Its broken for deeper reasons
And each day each reason deepens
Now I hate looking in mirrors
All it does is bring me tears
Each time I do its so dreadful
I can never see myself as beautiful
I dream of seeing perfection
But I never see that in my reflection
I trusted you with all my heart
I never expected you to tear it apart
Not only did I lose you
I lost myself esteem too
Guys always tell me they like what they see
But I just tell them sorry love just isn't for me