just another

“Just another”
Here I go again there’s no stopping me now
I made the mistake of looking into your eyes and smiling
I let myself believe in happiness just one last time
Throwing all the years of evidence that was piercingly shunning
Me to stop and walk away
But I believed in you, I believed in myself
And that was the biggest mistake of all
I allowed myself to think you weren’t as all the open ended promises before you
Now look at me falling at the fastest velocity from the highest point
Depression is my anti-drug
Happiness is just the bullet that kills my soul as I fall
It’s safe to say nothing can save me now
I’m not like most girls, hell and back
Since the age of 4 always being left, dropped and forgotten
You’re just another stepping stone
On my wrong path that leads to my suicidal destruction
Hope is out of the question
I’ll never be the same
Good-bye and good-night