Horrible things

Those knots in my stomach , the pain in my head.
Take it all and place to somewhere else were,

I'm done crying and feeling this pain.
Lying down and think about all I've ruined and have hurt.
I'm sick of these horrible things lurking around.

My mind is puking and screaming to my heart to fix.
But it's just won't .. it just can't.
It's not done causing me to suffer and hurt.
I hope one day it will be finished and I can move on.

It honestly makes me want to do such horrible things..
It honestly motivates me to actually do such horrible things.
Horrible things are the thing's i will do.
I keep thinking maybe not .. maybe i won't ..
But today I'am and tomorrow to..
horrible things that's what I'm making myself do.