What am I?

heart is mush
legs stretched, head lolled
off the side of my bed.

What do I think?

of you, a lot
and it's honestly maddening
because what am i to you?

they told me i care too much
and it's true.
i'm not another girl
who wants to cheat on you
eventually
like they all did.

What do I feel?

too much, too much
it gives me a headache.
so many things that
can be felt
and yet are not.
sadness, anger
and love.

What do you think? What do you feel?

i'm not as smart as i look.
naive, dense, and innocent;
that's what daddy told me.

So please just tell me
in words; words my heart can
understand.

What the hell am I
to You?