Tarnished
With a soul cracked right in two,
her blood flows inside her –
but her heart feels as if it has stilled.
His fingers…
She shudders; Oh god, his fingers.
Panic has passed already,
for she has accepted the inevitable
event;
but her innocence is slowly
torn to shreds.
And she shudders and she cries
and she keeps whispering…Stop.
It's like watching him tear
the wings off a butterfly.
And her hope has faded into white
but it's still there
because she is barely above a child;
and what is a child without hope?
Yet, it darkens to something like
fear and worry and disgust and the sensation
of ants on her skin –
Nevermind, it's just his…fingers.
And she is bare after he is gone;
bruised skin glaring in the face of her despair.
Delicate thing, she was, but now
she is broken.
Her wings have been pulled off and
her tears have dried away –
all she has left is the despair that comes
when terror is not enough.
Ma, she whispers when silence comes, Ma, where
are you? He ruined me.
Mama…Please find me. I want you to
tell me it's okay again.
her blood flows inside her –
but her heart feels as if it has stilled.
His fingers…
She shudders; Oh god, his fingers.
Panic has passed already,
for she has accepted the inevitable
event;
but her innocence is slowly
torn to shreds.
And she shudders and she cries
and she keeps whispering…Stop.
It's like watching him tear
the wings off a butterfly.
And her hope has faded into white
but it's still there
because she is barely above a child;
and what is a child without hope?
Yet, it darkens to something like
fear and worry and disgust and the sensation
of ants on her skin –
Nevermind, it's just his…fingers.
And she is bare after he is gone;
bruised skin glaring in the face of her despair.
Delicate thing, she was, but now
she is broken.
Her wings have been pulled off and
her tears have dried away –
all she has left is the despair that comes
when terror is not enough.
Ma, she whispers when silence comes, Ma, where
are you? He ruined me.
Mama…Please find me. I want you to
tell me it's okay again.