Nothing
The first time,
It had caught me by surprise.
I cried.
The second time,
It didn’t bother me as much.
I shrugged it off.
The third time,
It was never voiced.
No pain.
The fourth time,
It was humiliating,
I cried.
The fifth time,
It was voiced,
It hurt a lot.
The sixth time,
It hurt even more.
The seventh time,
I had fooled myself.
The eighth time,
I didn’t cry.
I felt nothing.
It had caught me by surprise.
I cried.
The second time,
It didn’t bother me as much.
I shrugged it off.
The third time,
It was never voiced.
No pain.
The fourth time,
It was humiliating,
I cried.
The fifth time,
It was voiced,
It hurt a lot.
The sixth time,
It hurt even more.
The seventh time,
I had fooled myself.
The eighth time,
I didn’t cry.
I felt nothing.