Nothing

The first time,

It had caught me by surprise.

I cried.

The second time,

It didn’t bother me as much.

I shrugged it off.

The third time,

It was never voiced.

No pain.

The fourth time,

It was humiliating,

I cried.

The fifth time,

It was voiced,

It hurt a lot.

The sixth time,

It hurt even more.

The seventh time,

I had fooled myself.

The eighth time,

I didn’t cry.

I felt nothing.