Locked Myself Out (UN-EDITED)

My thoughts are shallow and small
as I press my left temple up against the wall
But maybe I've misjudged them - maybe they're deep
It seems my thoughts are secrets, that my mind has to keep
And I find that I've locked myself out of my mind
The door is heavy and the key, I can't find
So I listen closely outside the door
I hear a melody but I want to hear more
And the lyrics too, I can't ascertain
So I rattle the door, the lock and chain
But to no avail, I cannot enter
I guess I'll knock a little bit gentler
And the lock and chain would disappear
My thoughts, my mind would let me hear
And I'd promise to stay
Even if to my dismay,
I walk into a blizzard of thrashing thoughts
A tornado that i'd try to run down - refusing to be caught
An earthquake that rattles what's between my ears
A natural disaster of screaming fears
I'd stay through it all
And I'd try to stand tall
I'll walk on through this disaster
It'll end sooner if I go a bit faster
But I can never run away
or the thoughts in my mind, unexposed - would decay
But I'd rather face them anyway
If I never knew my own self, I'd have nothing to say