Penetration

A sea of blue and green
Mostly green like seaweed or
apple leaves.
surrounded by a mane
a lions mane of blonde hair and
lowlights and highlights
they're natural though everything's so
natural.

I'm looking at you and you're looking at me
Thinking so many things neither of us have the
guts to say.
sad to say
we don't have the guts
because we do
inside our bodies
it's tearing us apart
with agony
shattering every known feeling inside.
But the feelings aren't gone
they're broken and cutting
feelings are cutting inside of me and i feel it
you feel it to

we don't know the other is feeling it
pretending it's not happening
pretending your gaze isn't penetrating into my soul
and piercing my heart with tiny pins until my heart can't take it anymore

if we keep looking into each others eyes
lack of talking lack of smiles
no thinking or touching
it would be glorious
becoming one.