Rebirth

A mist of wind arrived and breathed grievances through my hair

Voice like velvet threw knives through the air

Stabbing my heart with every word

Every word a sword

A mist of wind kissed me gently as it blew away. 

I knew I could no longer stay

So I took my tears and my broken heart

And began to retell my story from the start

The laughs and his shining eyes 

To the moment of his good-bye

I never got a say

I didn't get one more day

So I stood and cried with my broken heart 

My mind tearing itself apart

Looking for the answers I cannot get 

Yearning for words that have not been said. 

I ran away to escape reality

Starvation was my penalty. 

Crying in the middle of the night

I was looking for a fight

I grabbed a dusty old book

One I used to give a distasteful look

I opened it and began to read 

This is my calling, my deed 

I heard a gentle voice whisper in my mind: 

"Pray. Pray for peace at mind." 

I picked up my old rosary and prayed for my sins. 

Prayed for a new life to begin. 

In the morning I found my little cross earrings and a bottle of dye. 

It was time to make big boys cry. 

I smiled so big, I smiled so bright 

It truly was a marvelous sight. 

I was saved that night 

Not from my broken heart 

But from tearing myself apart. 

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I wish I could talk to him... I'm so sorry...