I'm so stressed

I'm so stressed
I must confess
I'm really scared
my feelings are bared
it would be so easy to fail
to follow my old trail
but I want to succeed
I want to be freed
I feel like I'm drowning
all this chaos surrounding
and I would by lying
if I said I wanted to keep trying
I cant keep doing all this
I want to live in bliss
but I keep losing
and its getting harder to keep from using
I want to be done
want to have some fun
I want to get away
just for one day