addict

I dont consider myself an addict
just a person with a bad habit
i try to keep strong
try to get along
but when things get rough
not using gets tough
i know i dont really need it
Its just hardto forget
about the numbing bliss
and all the people i miss
you really have no clue
about what the fuck i go threw
when everyones screaming
so mad theyre streaming
everythings my fault
all the verbal assault
im useless and dumb
never adding up to the sum
so much for my smile
i live in denial
that things would ever change
people think im strange
like im some sort of freak
that im weak
when did this all happen
when will it all end