Crush
(It's a long story but I hope you care enough to read it)
I have to write this out. The only way to get over it completely...
I know we never spoke to each other. We barely knew each other. We only knew each other by face.
I was the one who defended you when no one did.
I was the one who found you the most adorable thing on this planet while the rest found you "dumb" and "ugly".
I was the one who admired the stuff you did at school like your art, exams and homeworks when no one did.
I loved you so much I was afraid to even pass next to you in the hallway so I always walked outside.
Why? Because you had such an impact on me that If you were next to me I would stop breathing...literally.
It happened once actually. You noticed. I know you did. My best friend laughed at me.
The next time was when you stood behind me waiting in line. I started shaking,
my voice started trembling while my best friend laughed at me... again.
My hands were shaking so badly, the money I had in my hand fell... Boy did I wish for the earth to open up and swallow me.
Instead I walked away as far as I could from you. I hated what you did to me every single time you were around me.
I was the one who loved you when nobody did. You knew that.
I know you did. But instead you decided to ignore me more and more. So much, that this time every time I was near you,
you would act if I was the most disgusting, annoying, horrific person ever. I never heard you speak,
but just the way you acted said enough, maybe even too much. Thank you Captain Obvious.
Because... all because you knew...you knew that I loved you.
Now, You've changed.
You're handsome
Popular
Wanted by a lot of girls
Now you're nothing to me. You got want you always wanted... Fame.
You found a girlfriend. I was happy for you and...she dumped you after 2 weeks. Dude...you looked depressed!
I ask the girl why and she responds: " Ehh didn't like him anymore. He got boring"
My first thought was: " Payback Bitch!"
but after, it was: " If I were your (EX) girlfriend I would've never done that to you.
What I would do to be in her place"
Guess what, reader...
I just realized I would NEVER get over this. Thought I would by writing about it but that's not going to happen.
Why? Because I am still hoping for that day...THAT ONE day... you would actually take your time and get to know me.
For you to realize that I'm not the person you always judged.
That I am the person you'll regret not having. As a girlfriend, as a friend, as anything.
I have to write this out. The only way to get over it completely...
I know we never spoke to each other. We barely knew each other. We only knew each other by face.
I was the one who defended you when no one did.
I was the one who found you the most adorable thing on this planet while the rest found you "dumb" and "ugly".
I was the one who admired the stuff you did at school like your art, exams and homeworks when no one did.
I loved you so much I was afraid to even pass next to you in the hallway so I always walked outside.
Why? Because you had such an impact on me that If you were next to me I would stop breathing...literally.
It happened once actually. You noticed. I know you did. My best friend laughed at me.
The next time was when you stood behind me waiting in line. I started shaking,
my voice started trembling while my best friend laughed at me... again.
My hands were shaking so badly, the money I had in my hand fell... Boy did I wish for the earth to open up and swallow me.
Instead I walked away as far as I could from you. I hated what you did to me every single time you were around me.
I was the one who loved you when nobody did. You knew that.
I know you did. But instead you decided to ignore me more and more. So much, that this time every time I was near you,
you would act if I was the most disgusting, annoying, horrific person ever. I never heard you speak,
but just the way you acted said enough, maybe even too much. Thank you Captain Obvious.
Because... all because you knew...you knew that I loved you.
Now, You've changed.
You're handsome
Popular
Wanted by a lot of girls
Now you're nothing to me. You got want you always wanted... Fame.
You found a girlfriend. I was happy for you and...she dumped you after 2 weeks. Dude...you looked depressed!
I ask the girl why and she responds: " Ehh didn't like him anymore. He got boring"
My first thought was: " Payback Bitch!"
but after, it was: " If I were your (EX) girlfriend I would've never done that to you.
What I would do to be in her place"
Guess what, reader...
I just realized I would NEVER get over this. Thought I would by writing about it but that's not going to happen.
Why? Because I am still hoping for that day...THAT ONE day... you would actually take your time and get to know me.
For you to realize that I'm not the person you always judged.
That I am the person you'll regret not having. As a girlfriend, as a friend, as anything.