Down Then Out

And if I wasn't so terrified I'd rip myself to shreds
Tearing me down and sewing it up in my head
These stitches remind me of the pain I feel
Waiting around for old wounds to heal
Do you see the pressure building up slowly
Or do you not see me someone so lowly
To solve my problems I've got to start at the root
I've been lying for so long its hard to tell the truth
But I've gone back to the start
And now I see why stone replaces my heart
I have it locked up so tight
It can't even catch a glimpse of light
Tired I fight on still
I stride right up to that mountainous hill
As I look up to the bright blue sky
I can't help but think of my insecurities and cry
Then I watch as lightening sets my life to flame
And I know there isn't a soul to blame
Moving on takes time but its going so slow
I feel a rush of air and down then out I go