My Own War

They don't understand what i'm cry for.
They don't see in my head i'm fighting a war.
Fighting to stay strong,
When they ask what's wrong.
Fighting to hide my frown,
When someone puts me down.
Fighting to hold back my tears,
When it seems no one cares.
I fight this war all the time,
Fighting to make everyone believe i'm fine.
This war i'm starting to lose,
But I guess that's not surprising news.
Its hard to fake a smile,
When I haven't been truly happy in awhile.
Its hard to fake a laugh,
When my heart is broken in half.
Its hard to have a good time,
When i'm secretly wishing he was still mine.
My smile is no longer there,
Its clear I wish he was still here.
My laugh is noticeably fake,
Its clear real ones I can't make.
My tears are starting to show,
Its clear to everyone I'm feeling low.
But they can't and never will see,
What exactly is wrong with me.
I'm living my life like its a war,
And I don't wanna fight it anymore.
They ask what's wrong I smile and say nothing is.
Secretly telling you everything is.