Thin is a synonym for insubstantial

IIIIDearest you, the sunken, afraid and
IIIIstupidly thinking thin is everything
IIIIyou –

You should really stop hiding in your clothes
because January will bleed into February and March

will bleed into June;
and you will find yourself as paper-thin
as a shadow upon the wall.

IIIIIIIIIIIIII( And you will cry and cry and cry
IIIIIIIIIIas they whisper in your ear, begging
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIplease, please )

You matter, darling; it doesn't
mean anything if they say not a word
about the image in the mirror
who looks like she's been pressed into

a smaller model
of herself.

And it's really not good seeing the numbers
dwindle in a downwards cycle
and your clothes change from tight to fitting
to loose.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII( But it's true that you're
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIan addict in a circle, chasing after
IIIIIa bliss that makes you cry at a mirror's
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIpicture )

Tell me, honey, what will you
do when your bones start showing –
oh wait, they already do.
You can slide your finger into the crevasses
your collarbone creates and
between your ribs.

It's like counting the rungs
of a ladder upon on your chest
and cutting your fingertips on the razor-sharp
edges of your hipbones.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII( Lock yourself away in
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIthe world of swapping food for
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIwater and wondering how much
IIIIIIIIIIIyou've put on since you last checked )

Dip your hands into your stomach, dearie;
it curves inwards like a sunken
face, a tear-stained frown –

why, you gave your heart to addiction, of course!
And now it has blackened with the
side affects you haven't yet felt.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII( Tell me, where has your will gone?
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIWhy don't you want to have weight
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIin this world? )

IIIILove,
IIIIa tear-stained you, waiting
IIIIfor recovery.