Torn Up

Torn Up

I just wanted to thank you for breaking me down even more.
For tearing me into little puzzle pieces,
That can't be put back together.
I'm far past the point of no return.

How could I have been so stupid to think for one second,
That you actually cared?
After all your fake lead on's and love you's,
This is what you give me?
All I ever did was love you.
I just wanted to call you my baby.

Why did I actually think that you might like me back?
I should've saw through your hints,
Seen through your lies.
This is the second time this has happened,
And it's the third time some boy made me cry.

I'm tired of being down.
I miss my old life.
The one where you never existed.
I just wish you'd go away and never come back.

I'm so tired of getting so excited over seeing you for nothing.
Getting that funny feeling in my stomach.
Feeling my heart beat race when I see you in the hall,
And slowly feeling let down when you don't acknowledge me.

I obviously mean nothing to you.
So why can't you mean nothing to me?
I've been standing beside you,
Screaming your name silently,
And waiting for you to notice me.

What's the point of loving you anymore,
When you obviously hate me?

Now I know what will happen.
It's happened to me so times before.
I'll start loving you more,
And you'll leave me behind.

Bleeding without a care in the world.
Our friendship will be gone,
You'll forget all about me.
I'll be completely dead to you.
You were once my guardian angel,
But now you'll never be there,
To catch me when I fall over again.

So thanks again,
For adding more gloom to my day,
But this isn't the end.
Just you wait.
Pretty soon you're going to be the one who's going to pay.
I'll make you regret,
Every single ounce of hurt you ever caused me.
Then you'll know what it's like to be torn up inside.

Only time can save us now.
Our final goodbyes are said.
But this by far isn't the end,
Because pretty soon we'll see each other in time,
And I'll slowly fall in love all over again.