"Just Friends"

When you appear at my side
And smile
And it reaches your blue-green eyes
My heart skips a beat.
But then it drops
'Cause I know your heart doesn't skip a beat
And you're just trying to be friends with me.

When you talk to me and tell me that hilarious story
And you stare at me so intently
But you're looking right through me.
It's like I'm transparent.
'Cause if you were really looking
You'd see I wanna be more than just friends.

I don't wanna ruin what we have now.
I love being friends with you
And I value your friendship more than anything.
And I'm frankly scared of being anything more.
I hate that I'm so conflicted.

And I look at you and see a great friend
But I wonder if that's all you see in me
And it probably is.
But that's okay.
I'll stop moping about it
And smile and talk to you like I always do
'Cause I can tell you anything and everything.

And if it's God's will for something to happen
Then maybe it will
But if not that's okay too.
I can handle my heart's ache
If it means I still get to be "just friends" with you. :)