Crush
These feelings inside
Have me so confused.
Do you realize?
‘Cause I can't tell you.
The way I feel about you
Is driving me insane
Because I know we will never be
And I'm pretty sure you don't feel the same.
And even if by some chance you do
We can't be together.
“The forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest”
Maybe that's why I feel the way I do.
I can't leave things as they are, can I?
I can't be content just being friends.
Stupid raging hormones!
One day I have feelings for you, the next I don't, and then I do again.
I guess all that's left to do is pray.
If God wants us to be then he'll make a way.
But it's so hard because you're all I think about
Especially when you're gone away.
And I wonder if you even think of me at all.
Does your mind ever wander towards me?
Probably not.
I'm probably just buried in your mind till the next time you see me.
I'm just some little sister type to you
Who can't think for herself
And is always coming to you for advice.
If you think of me, give me a sign.
If you don't, then please just say so.
Wait, don't, I don't want to know.
Things are so much better
With me just letting this fester
And you not knowing how I feel.
Because if you know and you don't feel the same way
I wouldn't be able to stand you looking at me differently
Or treating me differently.
Because I like things the way they are between us right now, really I do.
But I still entertain thoughts of more.
I know I shouldn't feel this way.
So what is it about you?
Your beautiful blue-green eyes,
Your smile, your laugh.
Your such a jerk to me
But you can be so sweet when you wanna be.
Such a wreck less tease
You flirt like crazy and you don't even realize.
You're the only one who can make me laugh when I'm down;
Even before I felt this way about you.
I can open up to you and you don't judge,
I can ask you for advice about anything.
You're always there for me when I need someone and ask you to be;
Sometimes you're the only one there.
Despite your ego and dickheadedness
You're the best Christian person I know.
Is it any wonder I would fall for you hard and fast?
I'm writing this but I'll never show you.
I never want you to read this.
It would kill me if you did.
So I'll pray that God will make a way
If it's His will.
But I'll wait,
Even as this turmoil inside slowly kills me
And I can't concentrate in class, on homework, or on God
Because thoughts of you and our next meeting invade my mind
And it kills me when you're gone and you don't talk to me or call me or text me.
But I'll wait on God still.
I'll wait a few years till I'm older anyway.
But I don't want these feelings to be out of hand.
Because my heart beats faster when you're near me,
When you sit down next to me and give me that smile
And bump my knee with yours.
And I feel like there's no one else in the world,
Like everything's going to be all right.
God, why did you make me like this?
Why did you give me hormones?
God, why would you make me like this person if nothing's going to happen?
Why do I have to be too young and inexperienced?
God, I hate crushing,
Even if I wouldn't rather crush on anyone but you!
Have me so confused.
Do you realize?
‘Cause I can't tell you.
The way I feel about you
Is driving me insane
Because I know we will never be
And I'm pretty sure you don't feel the same.
And even if by some chance you do
We can't be together.
“The forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest”
Maybe that's why I feel the way I do.
I can't leave things as they are, can I?
I can't be content just being friends.
Stupid raging hormones!
One day I have feelings for you, the next I don't, and then I do again.
I guess all that's left to do is pray.
If God wants us to be then he'll make a way.
But it's so hard because you're all I think about
Especially when you're gone away.
And I wonder if you even think of me at all.
Does your mind ever wander towards me?
Probably not.
I'm probably just buried in your mind till the next time you see me.
I'm just some little sister type to you
Who can't think for herself
And is always coming to you for advice.
If you think of me, give me a sign.
If you don't, then please just say so.
Wait, don't, I don't want to know.
Things are so much better
With me just letting this fester
And you not knowing how I feel.
Because if you know and you don't feel the same way
I wouldn't be able to stand you looking at me differently
Or treating me differently.
Because I like things the way they are between us right now, really I do.
But I still entertain thoughts of more.
I know I shouldn't feel this way.
So what is it about you?
Your beautiful blue-green eyes,
Your smile, your laugh.
Your such a jerk to me
But you can be so sweet when you wanna be.
Such a wreck less tease
You flirt like crazy and you don't even realize.
You're the only one who can make me laugh when I'm down;
Even before I felt this way about you.
I can open up to you and you don't judge,
I can ask you for advice about anything.
You're always there for me when I need someone and ask you to be;
Sometimes you're the only one there.
Despite your ego and dickheadedness
You're the best Christian person I know.
Is it any wonder I would fall for you hard and fast?
I'm writing this but I'll never show you.
I never want you to read this.
It would kill me if you did.
So I'll pray that God will make a way
If it's His will.
But I'll wait,
Even as this turmoil inside slowly kills me
And I can't concentrate in class, on homework, or on God
Because thoughts of you and our next meeting invade my mind
And it kills me when you're gone and you don't talk to me or call me or text me.
But I'll wait on God still.
I'll wait a few years till I'm older anyway.
But I don't want these feelings to be out of hand.
Because my heart beats faster when you're near me,
When you sit down next to me and give me that smile
And bump my knee with yours.
And I feel like there's no one else in the world,
Like everything's going to be all right.
God, why did you make me like this?
Why did you give me hormones?
God, why would you make me like this person if nothing's going to happen?
Why do I have to be too young and inexperienced?
God, I hate crushing,
Even if I wouldn't rather crush on anyone but you!